My Scary Thought.

Ok I know I've been a slacker lately, but I've had a REALLY REALLY good reason.

I WAS READING BREAKING DAWN PEOPLE!!!

I finished it last night so you will be seeing or rather hearing, maybe both of me.

I really liked the book, my personal take on it, not as good as the 1st 3 but still good.

Maybe I think that because I know it's over & that makes me sad I don't know.

But now I'm available to post again.

I have so much to tell/show you all.

We've been pretty busy around here.

First I have to share something with you that probably you ladies my age & older can appreciate.

I was driving home from running errands one day just me & the boys.

Out of the blue I started to think about my Courtnie (that's not crazy or abnormal I think about her a lot).

But I started to realize I mean REALLY realize how old she is & how grown up she is becoming.

Now mind you nothing at all has made my mind wander down this road, no conversation between her & I or her acting strange or anything, it just popped into my head THAT....

She is 16 years old!

Do you know what that means???

I could be a GRANDMA in 3 years or more (or less, Hopefully not).

3 years people that is like a snap of a finger.

If at the very worst I could become a MOTHER IN-LAW.

Oh I tell you I don't think I'm ready, I mean come on I'm only 28 (ok 38)

but i think 28.

When I think about it my heart starts to race & my mouth goes all dry & I start to have a panic attack!

Ok maybe not so dramatic.

BUT

It scares me to death.

I hope that she goes to college and get an education before either of those things happen, but they could.

I would like her to wait until she's like 28 (you know my age)

before she settles down & has a family.

I know it's not my decision to make & i will always love her no matter what choices she makes but I'm scared!!!